Jesus is our Scapegoat and Passover Lamb

The Hebrew feasts that were commanded by God to be followed religiously in the Old Testament were, in this order:

  1. The Passover  (1st month, 14th day of the Hebrew year)
  2. The Feast of Unleavened Bread (1st month, 15th to the 22nd day)
  3. The Feast of Firstfruits (the first harvest, 3rd month, variable)
  4. The Feast of Weeks (7 Sabbaths after the firstfruits, or 50 days, also called pentecost)
  5. The Feast of Trumpets (7th month, 1st day)
  6. The Day of Atonement (7th month, 10th day)
  7. The Feast of Tabernacles (7th month, 15th through 22nd day)

Of these, the most important celebration, illustrated by the amount of offerings decreed, and holiness required, is the Day of Atonement, followed by the Feast of Tabernacles.

Notice all the 1’s, 3’s, 7’s, and 22’s in this calendar.  God’s Realm is a circle.  A circle of perfect Love.

The Day of Atonement was the only day the holiest Priest was allowed by God to go behind the veil to minister to Him.  And even then, the Priest had to make a huge cloud of incense to occlude the vision of the LORD so that he would not die by seeing the LORD above the mercy seat upon the Ark of the Covenant.  God disallowed the priests to go into the Holiest of Holies ‘at just any time’ after Aaron’s two sons sinned by making profane fire in the sanctuary.  So the only time Priests could go into this sacred place was once per year.  It was a very holy day and involved much cleansing and preparation for not only the Priest himself, but for the Tabernacle, the furnishings, and all the articles in the Holy Place.

The children of God would bring two kid goats to the Priest, and he would cast lots to see which one would be for the LORD, for the sin offering of the people; and which one would be the scapegoat, to be let go wild in the wilderness.  After making a cloud of incense behind the veil, lest he die seeing the LORD’s presence, the Priest would kill the LORD’s goat and offer its blood by sprinkling it upon and before the mercy seat of the LORD.  This would atone for the Holy Place for all the iniquities of the children of God.  Then the Priest would lay his hands on the scapegoat’s head and confess upon it all the transgressions and sins of all the children of God in all their iniquities they had done, and send it out into the wilderness, where it would bear unto itself all their iniquities, taking them away into a solitary land.


When the story of Jesus’ life is recounted in the Gospels, the first act of his adult life we are privy to is his baptism in the River Jordan by John the Baptist when the Holy Spirit alighted upon him, and spoke, “This is My beloved Son, in whom I am well pleased.”  Then he immediately was ‘led by the Spirit’ into the Wilderness to be tempted by the devil.  The devil tempted him three times, and Jesus stayed faithful and true to God and His word all three times, using the Law of God to thwart the devil every time.

We could have been apprised of Jesus’ life before this point, and it would have been intensely interesting.  The reason the Gospel starts here is to make it obvious to those with eyes to see that Jesus is beginning with the end of the Israelite’s holy calendar, in order to best symbolize that He was here to finish God’s work, once and for all.

Jesus going into the wilderness reminds us of the scapegoat upon which were placed the sins of God’s people, before he was sent into the wilderness on the Day of Atonement to provide forgiveness and redemption to all the children of God.  Jesus, having cleansed himself with baptism by God’s Prophet, and having been covered by the cloud of the Holy Spirit, went out into the wilderness as a man and defeated the devil by overcoming the sins that would normally plague man.  He begins his mission for God with the last feast of the Hebrew year, as if he is picking up and completing or finishing that which was incomplete before him.

Jesus was in the Wilderness 40 days and 40 nights.  He is not the 2nd Adam, but the 3rd Adam, Noah being the 2nd Adam.  Noah was perfect in God’s eyes and he alone, with his 3 sons, was chosen by God to perpetuate God’s people before the Great Deluge.  However, Noah sinned.  Jesus came and succeeded, not only as Adam, but as the embodiment of God on earth, as the literal Son of God.

God has now divinely established Jesus as the perfect combination of man and God on earth, because Jesus defeats the devil time and time again, and overcomes sin; always while giving attribution to the Father.  Jesus shows us how we are supposed to live and to love in the way God intended.  Sometimes he fixes the law where it was incorrectly related, and sometimes he gives us new Law.  As his work becomes completed on earth, the time for his final and most perfect and holy sacrifice draws near.  This final act is to offer himself as the sacrificial lamb so that all who protect their life with his blood may have the curse of death pass them over; as happened in the days when our people were slaves in Egypt, just before they were set free.


But the man who… ceases to keep the Passover, that same person shall be cut off from among his people, because he did not bring the offering of the Lord at its appointed time; that man shall bear his sin.  ~Numbers 9:13


This final act of Jesus sets us free of not only our captivity, but from death, if we but paint His blood upon our life.  By making atonement for us with His perfect life, and allowing death to pass over us with His perfect blood, Jesus completed God’s will, drawing us into God’s divine circle once and for all.


Thank you, Jesus, for your Divine and Unique and Holy sacrifice for us~

My Sacrament of Penitence

leg cilice


It started last summer or so with the shaving of my head.  That was a completely conscious gift and sacrifice to my God.  Then I fasted a couple of times.  Then I gave up alcohol.  I slowly stopped going out, and slowly stopped having casual intimate encounters.  I avoid television and movies.  I have given up many pleasures of the flesh.  As I was abstaining from my favorite things, Jesus and the LORD were growing inside me, making me more pure and more holy.

I realized a while ago I was serving a sacrament of penitence to my God for all the years (about 22) I had abandoned Him and blasphemed Him.  He has told me I would be alone 7 years, then I would remarry.  I married Him last year, in November,and He is my Master and my husband.  Most of the time, I identify more with Him as Master.  I guess that is just where I am at with it.  I am beginning my 5th year as a single woman.

However, although I am slowly becoming an ascetic, I still have invasive thoughts of my Dream Man and sometimes I indulge in sinful sexual thoughts.  In short, I am behaving like a harlot even though I took a sacred vow to My LORD.  It has come to my attention that I want to/need to suffer more, and that I am honestly experiencing a sacrament of penitence whereby I am devoting myself increasingly to my God, in large part to attempt to redeem myself for my selfish and wayward and lost years without Him; and for causing the death and destruction of my life, and hurting those I love.

I KNOW Jesus is the path to salvation.  I know we are not saved merely by works.  I know I can never do anything to make me worthy of My LORD and God.  Yet I find myself needing to try, and wanting to prove to Him that I am willing to give up anything and everything just for Him.  I believe in All the Law and All the Prophets, and try to follow all the mitzvot (rules) in the Bible.  I love and believe in Jesus.  And I believe in God’s living word in my daily life, as He breathes Truth into my soul.

Wearing a cilice is a type of mortification.  It is a practice lost mostly to the annals of early Christian history.  They were called hairshirts and is what is meant when people would wear ‘sackcloth’.  Here is a picture of the hairshirt:


It was usually made of coarse black goat’s hair in a province in southeast Asia Minor, and is referred to in Psalm 35 and Isaiah.  Paul refers to mortifying his flesh in his first epistle to the Corinthians  “I chastise my body and bring it into subjection: lest perhaps when I have preached to others I myself should be castaway” ~1 Corinthians 9:27.  It was a popular Christian protestant and Catholic practice with many famous church elders, modern and ancient, using it as way to repent, purify themselves, and ultimately become closer to God.

I believe wearing the leg cilice every day and increasing abstention will be more of a reminder who my LORD and husband is; that it will be a constant physical reminder instead of just a mental one.  I owe it to my Almighty Aliha to go without bodily pleasure because I want to show Him He is all I want to want.  He is all I need.  Of course, living as a Christian is paramount to me.  This is just one more thing I can do to please God, and train myself in the way of righteousness.



My Vision of Death and the Afterlife

God gave me insight today in a morning dream whilst still slumbering in my bed.



There IS an afterlife and it is not very far away from us:  it is just through my butts on the ‘other side’.  When you die, if you believe in God and try to do good, your body cleaves from you, and you keep all your consciousness but you have no way to communicate with this world anymore because you have no body.  Like how, joined with our body here on earth, we cannot communicate with Heaven.

There is absolutely no change in the essence in our being, we simply go upward, and a little circle in my butt opens and we transcend unto God’s Realm, and are removed from here.  Our earthly dead body means nothing to us.



However, God showed me specifically that if we commit suicide, or do not believe in Him, or do not try to do good; our body becomes tethered or anchored into the ground of the earth, where we become stuck.  We cannot ascend through my butt into Heaven because we have chosen to be part of this world.  And we become like a tree.  Perhaps this is why God hates tree worship so much.  We are the trunk, and our legs are rooted in the ground.  It is horrible because the earthly world can regard us, but we cannot communicate with it.  Nor can we communicate with Heaven.  This felt like something that lasts forever in my dream.  This is hell.

It is not very difficult to go to Heaven.  It’s simply believing in, and loving God, and trying to do good.  Jesus was in my dream, but as a silent witness to the truth of these matters.


10/02/14:  God plants people here alone when they go to hell (as above), leaving them to their choice of life without Him.  This state is miserable, to say the least, and the only solace they will be able to find is finally accepting the Truth of Him, and loving Him.  Because no matter where we are, God, and only God, can give us peace.  Their punishment therefore is hell tethered into the earth with no one able to hear them, not even others in hell, because they chose a life without Him, but they will see that God is real and God is Truth, and they will finally be put in a situation where they cannot and will not deny that anymore.  Then when the earth is destroyed and God’s Son comes to reign in Zion, those who have turned to loving God, even from hell, will live in Heaven with Him and His host.  The others will be ejected into eternal damnation.


Praise Almighty YHWH ALHYM~

As Numerous as the Sand on the Seashore…

After Abraham offered Isaac as a sacrifice on Mount Moriah, God blessed him and said because Abraham had offered his only son as a sacrifice to God, Abraham’s offspring would be as numerous as the stars in the sky and the sand on the seashore.


I traveled home to Texas this past summer and we went to Galveston to swim in the surf and walk along the beach.  However, we were never able to even get down on the beach at any place because seaweed had washed on shore along the entire coast, and the rotting piles of it created a stench that made the eyes water, and also created an unhealthy sulfuric haze in the air.


I found in the news that not only the Gulf Coast was affected, but the Atlantic coast, and English coastline as well:  all were covered in rotting seaweed, with little sign of sand anywhere.


It occurred to me that this might be a sign from God that He is not going to multiply His people anymore, or a bold attempt by the enemy to blot out God’s promise to our Patriarchs that His Chosen Ones will be as numerous as the sand on the seashore.  Since this event is unprecendented in our recorded history, there is no doubt in my mind it is a spiritual omen of the possibility that man might be on the way out…


To correlate with this, as a midwife I have noticed a distinct and fairly recent increase in the  number of women having problems in labor and delivery.  The cesarean section rate is climbing rapidly, and this cannot always be attributed to aggressive management and unnecessary surgery.  Indeed, many more women and babies would be dying without surgical intervention and the reason is not easily discernible.  Infertility is not uncommon as well.


Add to this signs similar to the plagues of Egypt, like water turning to ‘blood’ in China, and diseased livestock with mad cow; along with the wars in the middle east where Muslims are killing Christians and Jews, and it does not bode well for humanity.


Perhaps obliterating the sand is just the first sign.  Maybe He will blot out the stars, and cover the dust of the earth as well, rendering life hopeless.


To Abram:  ~Genesis 15:5~ And he brought him forth abroad, and said, Look now toward heaven, and tell the stars, if thou be able to number them: and he said unto him, So shall thy seed be.

To Abraham:  ~Genesis 22:17~ That in blessing I will bless thee, and in multiplying I will multiply thy seed as the stars of the heaven, and as the sand which is upon the sea shore; and thy seed shall possess the gate of his enemies;

To Isaac:  ~Genesis 26:4~ And I will make thy seed to multiply as the stars of heaven, and will give unto thy seed all these countries; and in thy seed shall all the nations of the earth be blessed;

To Jacob:  ~Genesis 28:14~ And thy seed shall be as the dust of the earth, and thou shalt spread abroad to the west, and to the east, and to the north, and to the south: and in thee and in thy seed shall all the families of the earth be blessed.

Paul’s Thorn…

May have been his guilt over condoning the stoning of Stephen.  This memory would have necessarily kept him humble, and was perhaps a main factor in his mission to preach the Gospel to the Gentiles.

I Will be a Wall of Fire all around Her…

Then I raised my eyes and looked, and behold, a man with a measuring line in his hand.  So I said, “Where are you going?”  And he said to me, “To measure Zion, to see what is its width and what is its length.”  And there was the angel who talked with me, going out; and another angel was coming out to meet him, who said to him, “Run, speak to this young man, saying:  ‘Zion shall be inhabited as towns without walls, because of the multitude of men and livestock in it.

“For I,” says the LORD, “will be a wall of fire all around her, and I will be the glory in her midst.”

“Up, up!  Flee from the land of the north,” says the LORD; “for I have spread you abroad like the four winds of heaven,” says the LORD.  “Up, Zion!   Escape, you who dwell with the daughter of Babylon.”  For thus says the LORD of hosts:  “He sent Me after glory, to the nations which plunder you; for he who touches you touches the apple of His eye.  For surely I will shake My hand against them, and they shall become booty for their servants.  Then you will know that the LORD of hosts has sent Me.

“Sing and rejoice, O daughter of Zion!  For behold, I am coming and I will dwell in your midst,” says the LORD.  “Many nations shall be joined to the LORD in that day, and they shall become My people.  And I will dwell in you midst.  then you will know that the LORD of hosts has sent Me to you.  “And the LORD will take possession of Judah as His inheritance in the Holy Land, and will again choose Zion.”

“Be silent, all flesh, before the LORD, for He is aroused from His holy habitation!”  ~Zechariah 2:1-13

The Holy Trinity

It takes obedience to the Law and the Prophets,

Along with grace through faith in Jesus Christ,

To bring us unto God; to know His Divine Will and Living Word.


Paul argues that being obedient to the Law is not the means to salvation, but that is is faith through Jesus Christ that brings justification unto God.  He points out that otherwise, works would be enough for salvation, and that since all men are sinners, no matter how obedient to the Law we are, we will always fall short of attaining God’s Realm.  He quotes scripture in Genesis relating how,

“He [Abram] believed in the LORD, and He accounted it to him for righteousness.”  ~Genesis 15:6

This is true, indeed.  It takes faith and belief in God, and His Only Begotten Son, Jesus Christ, as our Lord Messiah to attain true everlasting salvation.

But scripture also says eleven chapters later that the LORD appeared to Isaac and blessed him by restating the covenant that He had made with his father, Abraham:

“…I will give to your descendants all these lands; and in your seed all the nations of the earth shall be blessed; because Abraham obeyed My voice and kept My charge, My commandments, My statutes, and My laws.”  ~Genesis 26:4-5

This shows that it is not just due to faith and belief that we, and our descendants, are blessed by God, but that it is very much due to obedience that we, and our descendants, are blessed by God on earth.

This raises the question as to whether faith in Jesus Christ provides us with eternal life, and obedience to God provides with abundant blessings while we live out our earthly lives.  Indeed, the Old Testament did not speak to heaven, though it did speak about having plenty for our generation, and the generations to follow, if we loved God, obeyed Him, and had faith in Him.

Some Christians seem more concerned with attaining salvation in Heaven, while flouting God’s Law here on earth.  What does this mean?

I think it is obvious that both a grounding and foundation in God’s Law and commandments, along with  faith and belief that Jesus Christ is our Lord Messiah, which enables us to have flourishing lives here, and in the afterlife, are important.  Why, as God’s Chosen Ones, have we argued the importance of one over the other for millenia?

I personally want to please God, love Him, and know Him more than anything.  In practicing this, I want to know His ancient Law, as well as live by the example His Son gave.  I am saved forevermore by faith in Jesus’ sacrifice to me on the cross, but I am also living a righteous life under God’s Law, and will be blessed by Adonai Elohim for doing so.

I do not desire to forego either one of these.  Do you?

Called by God~

“Your birth and your nativity are from the land of Canaan;

Your father was an Amorite and your mother a Hittite.

As for your nativity, on the day you were born your navel cord was not cut,

Nor were you washed in water to cleanse you;

You were not rubbed with salt nor swathed in swaddling clothes.

No eye pitied you, to do any of these things for you,

To have compassion on you;

But you were thrown out into the open field,

When you yourself were abhorred on the day you were born.

And when I passed by you and saw you struggling in your own blood,

I said to you in your blood, ‘Live!’  Yes, I said to you in your blood, ‘Live!’

I made you thrive like a plant in the field;

And you grew, matured, and became very beautiful.

Your breasts were formed, your hair grew, but you were naked and bare.

When I passed by you again and looked upon you,

Indeed your time was the time of love;

So I spread My wing over you and covered your nakedness.

Yes, I swore an oath to you and entered into a covenant with you,

And you became Mine,” says the Lord God.

“Then I washed you in water;

Yes, I thoroughly washed off your blood, and I anointed you with oil.

I clothed you in embroidered cloth and gave you sandals of badger skin;

I clothed you with fine linen and covered you with silk.

I adorned you with ornaments, put bracelets on your wrists,

And a chain on you neck.

And I put a ring in your nose, earrings in your ears,

And a beautiful crown on your head.

Thus you were adorned with gold and silver,

And your clothing was of fine linen, silk, and embroidered cloth.

You ate pastry of fine flour, honey, and oil.

You were exceedingly beautiful, and succeeded to royalty.

Your fame went out among the nations because of your beauty,

For it was perfect through My splendor

Which I had bestowed on you,” says the Lord God.

~Ezekiel 16:3-14

“Then came Pete…

“Then came Peter to Him, and said, ‘Lord, how oft shall my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? till seven times?’ Jesus saith unto him, ‘I say not unto thee, until seven times: but, until seventy times seven.'” ~Matthew 18:21-22

This beautiful exhortation regarding forgiveness is made even more divine when we realize that Jesus Christ was speaking out against the ancient practice of the Tribe of the Lamechites to diabolically take revenge seventy-sevenfold, including upon the families of those who would so much as wound them; making modern day gang fighting appear almost like a daily tea.

“Then Lamech [great great great grandson of Cain] said to his wives:  ‘…I have killed a man for wounding me, even a young man for hurting me.  If Cain shall be avenged sevenfold, then Lamech seventy-seven fold.'”  ~Genesis 4:23-24

Jesus used his short time here as rabbi teaching especially contentious subjects which had either been long standing ancient practice, as seen here, or reasserting God’s Will where it digressed from Mosaic Law, as regarding divorce.  Sometimes he clarified word meanings, as when he told a story describing what a ‘neighbor’ was.  Almost all of what he chose to discuss with his followers, that we can see in the pages of scripture at least, made some important new point, in direct opposition to what had been the interpreted belief or status quo of that time.

He rocked the ancient world and conservative Jews so much in these ways.  Even though He was speaking mostly of love and compassion and forgiveness, and healed incessantly, it was impossible for the Pharisees to equate this message with God’s direct Word and Will.  They were so used to assuming God’s Will by reliance on their increasingly tortuous interpretation of the Law.

Not that the Law isn’t important!  It is.  We are commanded by God, by Jesus, and by the Apostles to keep the Law.  But not at the cost of the two greatest commandments.


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