I Do Not Desire Friends

I realized of late that I am going to purge my life of ‘friends’.  Most of my friends are non-Christians anyway, and we just do not share the same worldview, where Jesus Christ means everything, and where our world revolves around Him.  So hanging out is not gratifying for the most part.  Furthermore, friends give you their leftovers from what is left after they give to their families.  Therefore, you are never really on the inner tier of their love, affection, and consideration, but more on the outskirts of it.  I have found they share their TRUE feelings and their true selves with their families, and are more ‘on their best behavior’ with me.

Yet this is not how Jesus commanded it to be.  He clearly stated that our families are those who do the will of the Father in Heaven.  The church, who are truly abiding in Christ and in God’s word are, and should be, our family, and should be just as close to us as our blood family, or even closer if our blood family does not do the will of God!  However, as with so many other facets of Christianity, this has also become tainted with worldly notions so that most Christians don’t ever really understand, much less think about, what it means to treat your Christian family as your REAL family. They still think that their blood kin are commanded to come first.  And that is just not true.

I desire my FAMILY>  Family as a Christian are those brothers and sisters and mothers who do the will of God, and who treat me like their kin, regardless of blood relatedness.  However, because Christians tend to hold non-blood-kin at arms’ length (as already explained) it is nigh on impossible to attain that kind of spiritual family which Jesus spoke of.  So I am a sister and mother without my family in Christ.  Just when I think I am obtaining brothers and sisters in Christ, they pull away or put the familiar distance there that the world says it appropriate for ‘friends’.  This is another reason I do not desire friendship:  it always feels like a consolation prize for what God really intended for His chosen people.

Unfortunately, my children are not my family because they do not claim Jesus Christ as their savior nor do they try to live in God’s will.  If I had a Christian family as it should be, I would no doubt be closer to them than I am with my own flesh and blood children.  The reason is because without the common ground of Jesus Christ, we are basically strangers inhabiting the same house.

Friendship for me means settling and living lower than God desired for me.  I would rather be a recluse and focus all my time and attention on God and doing His will–whatever it might be–than waste my precious time with non-believers and Christians who just don’t find me worthy of calling ‘Sister’.








Lead a Quiet Life, Mind Your Own Business, and Work with Your Own Hands

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1 Thessalonians 4

Plea for Purity

Finally then, brethren, we urge and exhort in the Lord Jesus that you should abound more and more, just as you received from us how you ought to walk and to please God; for you know what commandments we gave you through the Lord Jesus.

For this is the will of God, your sanctification: that you should abstain from sexual immorality; that each of you should know how to possess his own vessel in sanctification and honor, not in passion of lust, like the Gentiles who do not know God; that no one should take advantage of and defraud his brother in this matter, because the Lord is the avenger of all such, as we also forewarned you and testified. For God did not call us to uncleanness, but in holiness. Therefore he who rejects this does not reject man, but God, who has also given us His Holy Spirit.

A Brotherly and Orderly Life

But concerning brotherly love you have no need that I should write to you, for you yourselves are taught by God to love one another; 10 and indeed you do so toward all the brethren who are in all Macedonia. But we urge you, brethren, that you increase more and more;

11 that you also aspire to lead a quiet life, to mind your own business, and to work with your own hands, as we commanded you, 12 that you may walk properly toward those who are outside, and that you may lack nothing.

The Comfort of Christ’s Coming

13 But I do not want you to be ignorant, brethren, concerning those who have fallen asleep, lest you sorrow as others who have no hope.

14 For if we believe that Jesus died and rose again, even so God will bring with Him those who sleep in Jesus.

15 For this we say to you by the word of the Lord, that we who are alive and remain until the coming of the Lord will by no means precede those who are asleep. 16 For the Lord Himself will descend from heaven with a shout, with the voice of an archangel, and with the trumpet of God. And the dead in Christ will rise first. 17 Then we who are alive and remain shall be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air. And thus we shall always be with the Lord. 18 Therefore comfort one another with these words.

The Idolatry of Life Itself

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Superbowl 51 recently opened with a lengthy roll-out by former President George HW Bush and his wife, Barbara Bush.  I read tales of how many people found it touching and emotional.  I found it emotional too, but in an embarrassing and shameful way, and I wondered for a while if I were not watching an SNL spoof, that is just how ridiculous it appeared to me.

It is not that I do not have respect for America or our former presidents.  I am a patriot.  And I am not an ageist, I do have respect for old folks, and all that ails them with the natural aging process.  I take the Bible verse seriously that we should rise and give respect in the presence of the grey-headed and elderly (Leviticus 19:32).

But what greeted our collective eyes on Superbowl Sunday just seemed wrong to me and got my dander up.  Why do all our old people have to be so weak and rely on gadgets to get them around, to feed them, and to keep them alive?  How did old people live in the olden days?  And were they always so weak?

I believe I feel righteous indignation viewing this sort of scene because it illustrates how much we idolize life itself and keep people alive way beyond God’s will for them to be alive.  I already posted here that God’s way is not to use physicians.  Indeed, this elderly Bush couple were recently hospitalized for pneumonia.  How many other hospitalizations and surgeries have they had to ‘improve’ their quality of life and keep them alive?  And the inevitable question begs to be asked, “When would God have naturally taken their life?”

George H. W. Bush, the oldest living president, was in the hospital a week ago in Houston. But he recovered from pneumonia and gave us the rare memorable Super Bowl coin toss.

Bush was rolled out by a military member in a wheelchair while wife Barbara took a golf cart to center field. (http://ftw.usatoday.com/2017/02/george-bush-super-bowl-51-coin-toss-barbara-bush-hw)

Chelsea Clinton’s Emotional Experience

Old people in general seem to have more gadgets to keep them alive and mobile than a Millennial living on a trust fund has trendy devices.  It is expected in our consciousness now that most white males (and females) over the age of 60 will receive heart surgery and a joint replacement before their tenure in this world is through.  And we hail this as wonderful and normal!  Christians praise God for doctors.  Deacons and pastors leading church prayers implore the congregation to pray for physicians and their patients, a profession not anointed in the Bible, while the biblical command to call the church elders to pray over and anoint the infirm is completely ignored!

Calling 911 is considered a right in our society, and resuscitation of life the default.  Indeed if one does not want to be brought back to life, one must file a legal Do Not Resuscitate notice in their personal paperwork.  It used to be that being brought back to life was a miracle performed by Jesus Christ Himself and those holiest prophets anointed by God.  Now even EMTs can bring people back from the dead.

Have we stopped to consider God’s will in this matter?

Doctors in America have driven this idolatrous cow with the ever available bait of money.  The prolongation of human life appeals to us because of our innate fear of death, and those who do not have the promise of eternal life are the most fervent adherents of it. The medical establishment over the last 150 years or more has been creeping in and insidiously taking over, like a cancer.  Now we are at Stage 4 where it has become part of every fiber of our beings.  It has become so commonplace to live as long as possible that nearly all of us take it for granted, and think those who do not believe life should exist at all costs, and exist as physically perfect, are crazy.

President George HW Bush’s son, George W Bush, like most Americans is eager to undergo the high priest’s scalpel.  In this article it is suggested he had prophylactic heart surgery just to prevent a problem, and this type of preventative surgery is not supported in physicians’ own medical literature!  He did it because he had the money (or insurance), and he found a willing doctor, just like when Angelina Jolie shocked the world with her preventative mastectomy.

Regarding prolongation of life, much money is spent on trying to keep people alive beyond the age of 65, mainly through hospitalization.

And studies show that we spend the most amount of money trying to keep dying people alive in their last year of life, and that is increasing rapidly as the years tick by.  The numbers show we are collectively afraid of death.

Life is the idol.  Doctors are its high priests.  Hospitals are the temple.  And body parts are the sacrifice.  Blood is let freely and voluntarily to appease the gods of fake life.

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Life itself is being idolized.  Humans are placing the value of their lives over everything, over God and definitely over His will.  Some would argue that God uses physicians to keep people alive, and He might in some cases.  But overall that argument is as baseless as saying God uses sin as a teacher.  God allows us to have free will.  If we choose to try and live forever, He will allow it in His way.  That does not mean He supports it or that it is right.  We cannot understand God’s ways as humans.  We must look to the Bible for knowledge of His will, and we must abide in Christ to keep His will.  Both are necessary for living in His will for us.

…And dying in His will for us.

If You Are Not With Me, You Are Against Me

“He who is not with Me is against Me, and he who does not gather with Me scatters.”  ~Luke 11:23 

There is a seeming contradiction in the Book of Luke which has bothered me for some time.  I finally researched the verses in the Greek and got to the bottom of the problem, which can simply be attributed to a fallacious translation, as unfortunately happens in the extensive text of the Christian Bible.

In Chapter 9 Jesus states, “If they are not against us, they are for us.”  But then in Chapter 11 follows up with, “If you are not for us, you are against us.”

It cannot be both ways.  Those statements are mutually exclusive.  If one exists, the other cannot exist.  They both cannot be true.

The mystery lies in one simple but profound word translated as ‘for’ in the latter part of verse 49 of Chapter 9, usually translated as:  “Do not forbid him, for he who is not against us is for us.” However that word in the Greek means much more than ‘for’, it is the word ‘huper’ which means ‘over’ or ‘superior to’.  But what can Jesus mean by that?  If we substitute in that meaning we get:  “Do not forbid him, for he who is not against us is over us?”

Yet let us back up and look at the context in which Jesus is speaking to His disciples in Chapter 9.  John had told Jesus they saw (the Greek word for ‘to see’ here also means ‘to know’) someone casting out demons in Jesus’ name, and they prevented him because he was not someone they knew.  Jesus countered John by answering that if someone is casting out demons in His name, and he is not against Jesus (an antichrist spirit or agent), he must be doing this deed by a superior authority, and is actually over His disciples.

Wow.  That suggests that other entities were at work whom the disciples did not know.  This word ‘huper’ is also used in Romans Chapter 13 when it states all men are subject to the highest authority superior to all; and that rulers, while over men, are also under this highest authority, which is superior to them.  In all translations ‘huper’ is simply translated as ‘for’ or ‘over’, without its divine meaning carried forth.


So for practical purposes, if man is lackadaisical and lives in a way that is not against Jesus Christ, but is merely apathetic or agnostic, if you will, it does not mean that he is FOR Jesus.  The context of this statement is when good works are done by those professing Jesus’ name but whom we may not know or recognize as brethren.  Jesus tells us to allow this to happen, because if miracles are worked in His name, and they are not worked by those against Him by false prophets or an the antichrist (i.e. by magic or subterfuge as with the Egyptian magicians), they are being done by a Higher Authority, someone infused with the Holy Spirit, or an angel.

Jesus goes on to state very clearly later in Luke’s gospel that,

“He who is not with Me is against Me, and he who does not gather with Me scatters.”  ~Luke 11:23 

This is what we need to remember:  To be lukewarm about Jesus means to be against Him and to prohibit God’s Kingdom.  Doing nothing to promote the name of Jesus by those who know His name, means to be against Jesus.

We need to be proactively FOR Jesus Christ.  Anything less than this means we are against Him, and therefore God Almighty.

When the World Hates You

My ex-colleague who is an eastern pagan idol worshiper stole my washer and dryer today with her family members.  She literally came into my large domicile and unhooked them and took them.  She did not need them and I had laid claim to them because I did need them.  My other colleague, a lukewarm Christian, watched her do it, and also told her I had thought about keeping the refrigerator because I thought I might need that too (when I move out of here).  So the pagan worshiper left a nasty note on the refrigerator saying that it was mandated that it stay in this building, because she said so.  She really had no more right to those items than I had, and I actually could make a legal claim for them, but I will not, because Jesus says if someone takes your cloak, give them your tunic also.

I am a poor single mother, and she and all her family came in and literally took my washer and dryer.  She put it ‘in storage’ (per my other colleague’s report).  But she likely gave it to her children to have.  Now I have no way to wash clothes and will have to go to a laundromat to wash my and my sons’ clothes.  She has taken other things from me as well, and she is escalating in her boldness in doing so.  She really does not want me to have anything, while she and my other colleague get whatever they want (they have been carting out a lot of furniture for themselves).

I console myself and rejoice because I am constantly having to deal with this behavior from my wicked ex-colleagues and I pray that I continue to be humble in my behavior back toward them.  I want my actions to be like Jesus’ actions would be.  I talk to God and I talk myself through the hard times.  And I rejoice because I know if she hates me that much for no apparent reason, it means that the devil in her smells the righteousness in me.

For this is the message that you heard from the beginning, that we should love one another,  not as Cain who was of the wicked one and murdered his brother. And why did he murder him? Because his works were evil and his brother’s righteous.

 Do not marvel, my brethren, if the world hates you.  We know that we have passed from death to life, because we love the brethren. He who does not love his brother abides in death.  ~1 John 3:11-14

In these types of stressful situations with my wicked colleague, I also think a lot of this verse because she acts hatefully toward me as often as she can:

If the world hates you, you know that it hated Me before it hated you. If you were of the world, the world would love its own. Yet because you are not of the world, but I chose you out of the world, therefore the world hates you. Remember the word that I said to you, ‘A servant is not greater than his master.’ If they persecuted Me, they will also persecute you. If they kept My word, they will keep yours also. But all these things they will do to you for My name’s sake, because they do not know Him who sent Me.  ~John 15:18-21

There are a LOT of haters in the world.  There are more people who hate than who love, so being the victim of true hateful actions is a common happenstance for most of us.  It is difficult to constantly be on the side of being the hated, but it is still better than being on the side of the hateful.

Thank You for this good word, God.  I love You.  I know you see my anguish and persecution.  I consider suffering in the name of Jesus a blessing.

The Truth of the Trinity

I had a poignant and joyful revelation from the Lord today that the Trinity included the wife of God, more commonly known as Mary.

Just as Jesus is the first of many brethren, and there are many other chosen Sons of God, so are there many other Mary’s, who are in spirit the wife of God Himself.  We are not married to Jesus, as many mistakenly believe in the Catholic faith, but we are married to God the Father.  Of which there is only One.

Jesus knew that Mary was the Holy Spirit of God, whom He also referred to as the Helping Spirit.  There are many places in the Bible where Jesus speaks of the Holy Spirit.  And if your eyes have been opened to this Trinitarian truth, you can see clearly Jesus understands it is referring to His spiritual Mother.

Does it make sense that all essence of the female is kept out of the hierarchy of life and the throne room of Heaven when God was so careful to include female in the very beginning of His story, our Genesis?  God made woman a necessary part of life!  Indeed, Ayshah was the name of the woman God built from Adam’s rib.  The A means she is part of ALHYM, God Almighty.  And after Adam named her Ayshah, he was then also renamed to Aysh.  It does not make sense therefore that all concept of female is left out of the hierarchy of life, or the Holy Trinity, when Eve and Mary are key characters in our Christian roots.

This is why the serpent seduced Eve in the Garden of Eden.  The devil understood that Eve was the closest person to God.  That is also why the devil embodies a transgender spirit and prefers to masquerade as an angel of light, and a female.  The devil knows that Mary is the dearest being to God, she stands on his right side close enough for Him to whisper in her ear.

I believe this is the reason behind why the Book of Esther was the only book of the Bible not kept by the Essenes among their scrolls.  The Book of Esther is not historically accurate and this has caused some contentious debate among scholars as to its authenticity and even canonization.  But when we understand the Book of Esther as a parable it is a fine illustration of the role of God’s wife.  Esther’s Hebrew name was Hadassah which means ‘Myrtle Tree’.  Tree is a symbol of God’s wife throughout the Old Testament.  She is a beautiful orphan who finds herself chosen and becomes married to King Ahaseurus (God).  Her name is changed to Esther.  She is sent to the King as spokesperson to save her people (as a Helping Spirit). And Mordecai (her cousin), is nearly sacrificed and almost hung on a wooden gallows, not unlike a cross.  The Essene’s discomfort with this particular story makes a bit more sense when we consider the meaning behind Esther’s role as God’s wife, the heroine of the story.  The Essenes were made up of men who chose a celibate way of life, and perhaps they were jealous of the idea that God had a wife, and that a female could play a prominent role in Lifes’ tragedies and victories.

The missing female essence in the Trinity is Mary, who is God’s wife.  In the New Testament God touches Mary and she becomes infused with His Spirit so much that she becomes pregnant with His Spirit, His chosen Messiah.  She then bears God’s Son.  The chosen women of God, those with the spiritual name of Mary, are therefore higher than men on earth, and even sons of God, but not higher than God the Father.

The gentiles and Hebrews knew this and they worshiped her in ancient times.  The pagans continue to worship the Asherah pole, the gaia fertility goddess, and other female gods.  Of course, this is idolatrous and sinful.  God does not want His wife worshiped.  He doesn’t even want His wife in the limelight.  He protects His wife fiercely.  But the point is that the Wife of God is real!

Jesus clearly understood Mary was the essence of God’s Holy Spirit by the words he spoke.  And once we understand it, the following verse becomes clear because speaking against the Holy Spirit is like speaking evil of not only your Holy Father, but your Holy Mother as well, a gentle Spirit sent out by God through Jesus who is only meant to help you, guide you, and love you:

And whosoever speaks a word against the Son of man, it shall be forgiven him: but whosoever speaks against the Holy Spirit, it shall not be forgiven him, neither in this world, nor in the world to come.  ~Matthew 12:32

Blaspheming the Holy Spirit is like breaking the fifth commandment in Heaven.


The Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, he will teach you all things and bring to your remembrance all that I have said to you.  ~John 14:26

And the fruits of the Spirit are in essence holy feminine attributes:

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness,  gentleness, self-control. Against such there is no law.  ~Galations 5:22-23