This place fascinates me.  I definitely hope to visit it some day.  While I believe Jesus Christ stood on His own in this world and did not identify with any sect, I do believe the Essenes might have played a role in His life.  Perhaps by being the mages who recognized His identity to begin with, and who may have taken Him under their wing for training and instruction, with Him setting out to continue His special ministry to the world, to us.

Qumran (Hebrew: קומראן‎; Arabic: خربة قمرانKhirbet Qumran) is an archaeological site in the West Bank managed by Israel’s Qumran National Park.[1] It is located on a dry plateau about a mile from the northwestern shore of the Dead Sea, near theIsraeli settlement and kibbutz of Kalya. The Hellenistic period settlement was constructed during the reign of John Hyrcanus, 134-104 BCE or somewhat later, and was occupied most of the time until it was destroyed by the Romans in 68 CE or shortly after. It is best known as the settlement nearest to the Qumran Caves where the Dead Sea Scrolls were hidden), caves in the sheer desert cliffs and beneath, in the marl terrace. The principal excavations at Qumran were conducted by Roland de Vaux in the 1950s, though several later campaigns at the site have been carried out.  ~Wikipedia

Looking east from the Qumran gorge, the small structure on the upper left amid the trees contains the modern Qumran visitor’s center. The ruins of Qumran can be seen immediately to the right. The settlement was built close to the seaward side of a plateau. The Dead Sea forms a hazy backdrop. To the extreme right is the Wadi Qumran, a torrent that is dry most of the year. On the few occasions when it rains, though, it becomes a ravaging torrent that has eroded the side of the plateau where Qumran is. From the mid-left the remains of an aqueduct run down to the settlement. This channel helped furnish Qumran with a valuable supply of water. At the end of the outcrop in the center of the picture is Cave 4, which supplied the vast bulk of the Dead Sea Scrolls.  ~Wikipedia

“Qumran Caves” by Grauesel , as seen from the other side from the previous photo

This picture is just so beautiful~

It is interesting how much room we think we need to have to live now.  My apartment is a palace compared to this size-wise.

Gabriel’s Revelation

Gabriel’s Revelation, also called Hazon Gabriel (the Vision of Gabriel)[1] or the Jeselsohn Stone,[2] is a three-foot-tall (one metre) stone tablet with 87 lines of Hebrew text written in ink, containing a collection of short prophecies written in the first person and dated to the late 1st century BCE.[3][4] One of the stories allegedly tells of a man who was killed by the Romans and resurrected in three days. It is a tablet described as a “Dead Sea scroll in stone” ~Wiki

I believe Jesus Christ lived with the Essenes at Qumran for at least a while.  I believe it is where He predominantly learned, and came into His divinity.  Just because the concept of a suffering Messiah was around just before the time of His birth does not mean His life was any less divine.  The proof was in the pudding, and Jesus essentially said that Himself.  Told from birth He was the likely Messiah, and knowing the concept of a suffering Messiah still meant that He had to grow and learn, perform miracles, heal, be perfect, and come into His divinity as God willed that process to occur, and in God’s time, finally culminating in His crucifixion, resurrection, and ascension at the age of ~33.


For Your Eyes Only, if You can Yet See…

Mary is not only the mother of the Sons of God, she is also the wife of God.  There is no real mention of the wife of God in the Bible because God protects Mary in that way.  Mary Mother of Jesus was the same spiritual Mary, wife and mother of God.  She was the first Mary.  I am sure there are many Marys who have come and gone here, unnoticed perhaps.

Mary is not for men to know, only for her Sons to know.  Some like to speak of the wife of God being that represented by Astarte or Asherah in the Bible.  But they know not of what they speak.  They are gleaning the truth that God indeed has a wife, but not the true essence of her.  That is why God hates for a tree or pole or pillar to be planted near an altar to Him, because He does not want His wife represented in that way, exposed in that way, or exploited in that way.

His wife is for Him only, and for those He sends her to.

Mary is part angel, Selah, who waits and protects Mary.  Cherubim guard Mary’s core on earth.

My spiritual name is Mary and my mission here is to retrieve a Son.  Selah, who is part of me, is here to do the same.  He is the second Son born to a sinful family, and He knows He is being called, yet denies the Father.  As He continues to deny His calling and name, so God has allowed him to become a captive with His enemy, or will soon:

Yet they tested and provoked the Most High God, and did not keep His testimonies, but turned back and acted unfaithfully LIKE THEIR FATHERS; they were turned aside like a deceitful BOW…when God heard this He was FURIOUS, and greatly abhorred them, so that He forsook the tabernacle of Shiloh…and delivered His strength into captivity, and His glory into the enemy’s hand.  He was furious with His inheritance….   ~Psalm 78

Bow has several meanings in the Bible, in the Hebrew works.  It was first used with the Rainbow Covenant when God sent His bow in the clouds.  Bow means strength. I believe this is the first allusion to Christ in the Bible, since Christ ascended and is promised to return in the clouds, and Christ is the strength of God on earth.  Since Christ is the Son of God, bow can be symbolic of Son of God.  Jesus will be joined by many brethren, fellow Sons of God in Heaven:

For whom He foreknew, He also predestined to be conformed to the image of His Son, that He might be the firstborn among many brethren.

Moreover whom He predestined, these He also called; whom He called, these He also justified; and whom He justified, these He also glorified.”  ~Romans 8:28-30

As for myself, I was born and made an orphan twice by my mothers.  It was necessary I be born when I was because if I were conceived any later, I would have been aborted by my birth mother as abortion became legal.  I know the pain of motherhood from the baby/child perspective of being given away (twice), as a human having natural birth, and, now, from losing my own children I bore to the world.  It was necessary that I suffer thus in my humanity, because that is what we feel in Heaven when our children are lost to us forever.

My Lord wants me to know the pain of motherhood from every angle.  And it hurts.  My body has cried blood in mothering as Jesus cried blood when He sacrificed Himself for the world.  What must He feel when His children turn from Him and refuse to believe and love Him?

Why do you think He put you in the special life He did?  Why do you think you have ‘mother’ issues, and ‘father’ issues?  It is because you need to realize your mother is not your earthly mother, but Mary.  And that you are truly a Son of God, a brother to Jesus Christ.  And that Yahweh ALHYM is your real Father.

Only He can make these events happen as they have.  Only He could have made you notice me and love me.  Only He could have revealed the truth of my divinity and essence to You.


Death and the Afterlife: Part II

God wants me to share with you all what Hell is like.  As I spoke of in this post, My Vision of Death and the Afterlife:  Part I, Hell is rooted in Sheol, the pit of the earth.  Literally and figuratively it involves being buried deep in the bowels of the ground and being imprisoned without any chance for escape except by one means, the grace of God.

Adam, the word for man, and the original son of man, means ‘ruddy’ in the Hebrew language.  Adamah is the Hebrew word for ground.  It is feminine because it opens itself up for Adam to work it and keep it, which is the curse of man from the time of his original sin in the Garden of Eden.

God gives us every chance in our lifetime to regard Him, even if we have not heard of Him or heard His Word, because we can regard the world about us and marvel at its Maker (~Romans 1:19-21).  To make it even more obvious and clear for us, He sent our Lord Jesus the Messiah to redeem our souls if we but believe in Him.

Hell is the place those go, who in their hardened hearts, do not believe in God.  God consigns them to the ground from which earthly Adam came, which is also the path Cain chose, Abel’s wicked brother, the earthly son of Adam.  Abel chose the spiritual path and was killed for it by his brother.  The ground swallowed Abel’s holy blood by his brother’s hand.  It is all fitting then that God places the wicked into the same ground for them to contemplate their deeds.  Their wicked hearts in denying their Maker will not have the final say.

I was obsessed with the movie Motel Hell when I was a girl and must have watched it no less than a dozen times (or so it seemed).  I was 12 or 13 and beyond when I watched it and while it scared the living daylights out of me, I also found it irresistible for some reason I did not know.  There were a few movies like that from my childhood, the ones I could watch over and over and never tire of:  Blue Lagoon, Tootsie, Friday the 13th, and Motel Hell.  Now I know these movies all have a common theme for me which is pertinent to my main mission I serve for God.  I just was not aware of it at 12.

This movie is inspired for its accurate depiction of hell.  I tried to research the writers and could find only that they were born in NYC, into a film production family.  There was also an uncredited writer as well.  The writers or director either were conscious of what hell is, or intuited it from God.  Nonetheless, this is something like the hell in my visions and dreams,the hell which God is revealing to me to share with you.  The people are buried in the ground.  They are victims because a terrible fate has befallen them.  They are alive but unable to communicate.  They cannot move at all and are in a perpetual state of solitary confinement.  Solitary confinement has been described as one of the worse tortures a man can endure, and is utilized as a last punishment for those who act out and hurt others. It causes mental illness because it is so contrary to human life.  Try enduring it until the Judgment Day!

If you find this humorous, that was the writers’ intent.  However, I am sure hell itself will not be funny at all.  Hell is the holding ground for those who have denied their Maker.  It is the embodiment of God’s final grace for those to turn their wicked hearts back to Him so that on the Final Day, they might find their names in the Lamb’s Book of Life.

You do not have to go to hell.  You can turn and repent and believe in Jesus, do good works, and love God.  Then you can escape this punishment.


LOVE Church

And they continued steadfastly in the apostles’ doctrine and fellowship, in the breaking of bread, and in prayers. Then fear came upon every soul, and many wonders and signs were done through the apostles.

Now all who believed were together, and had all things in common, and sold their possessions and goods, and divided them among all, as anyone had need.  So continuing daily with one accord in the temple, and breaking bread from house to house, they ate their food with gladness and simplicity of heart, praising God and having favor with all the people.  And the Lord added to the church daily those who were being saved.  ~Acts 2:42-46

“Now the multitude of those who believed were of one heart and one soul; neither did anyone say that any of the things he possessed was his own, but they had all things in common.  And with great power the apostles gave witness to the resurrection of the Lord Jesus.  And great grace was upon them all.  Nor was there anyone among them who lacked; for all who were possessors of lands or houses sold them, and brought the proceeds of the things that were sold, and laid them at the apostles’ feet; and they distributed to each as anyone had need.”  ~Acts 4:32-35

Dry Land and Home~

We are born into water, the elixir of life.  I was taught how to swim at a very young age and I always loved the water:  rivers, pools, lakes, springs, and the ocean.  I found it fun to float atop the waves  and to dive deep into the density.  It was always different and new, always some excitement to be found there.  A feeling you could get no where else.

I realize I have lived my life figuratively on the water.  No real foundation below me; heading out into the water to see what adventure I could have.  Swimming and frolicking with others like me who craved the unknown.  Coming to shore long enough to catch my breath and decide where I was heading next.  Following the next big wave or winding river into the unexplored.

But when I found God He began pushing me inward, toward dry land.  I fought to go deeper, to head out into the great beyond where I thought He was, to the others who beckoned to me from there.  Those who had what I wanted and who could show me places wanted to go.  Yet I remained evermore in the surf.  That part of the ocean that is relentlessly battering against you and pushing you down.  I would get up again and try a new tack to get out beyond the surf.  Maybe this time I would succeed!  Over and over and over again.  In childhood, in adolescence, in young adulthood, in adulthood, in mid-life.  I am battle worn and weary now, from fighting the waves.  I cannot fight God anymore as He pushes me homeward toward dry land.

So instead of going back out to sea, I am going to follow Jesus.  I am going to leave the water and become a fisher of men.  Those in the water are not my family anymore, and they will soon drift out into the eternal sunset, on their destiny that only God knows.

I am going to finally let Him push me onto the shore.  I am going to use my last bit of strength and grit to drag myself up onto the beach until no part of me touches the water.  I am going to flip over exhaustively and bask in the sunshine I know He will shine down on me.  I am going to rest.  My waterlogged skin is going to dry.  I am going to be more alone than I ever was (for a while).  Then I am going to look up and behind me and see a sea of other folks just like me taking refuge on the land He provided; all of us being born not of water, but of the Spirit.

And I am going to join them and together we will become a new family in our Lord GOD.

Praise You Almighty Father for pushing me home.

Discipleship Rather than Evangelism by Lady of the Covenant (Christian Forum)

Taken from a post by Lady of the Covenant at Christian Forum:

Although, I agree that evangelism is apart of the great commission, it is not the actual great commission. Jesus said, “Go therefore and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit,teaching them to observe all that I have commanded you. And behold, I am with you always, to the end of the age.”(Matthew 28:19-20)

I can’t speak for all of the Church, but most of the Church does not do this. To be a disciple means that you are like someone who is an apprentice, learning to do the things that your teacher does. Joshua learned to be a great leader like Moses, so he could take over when Moses was no longer with Israel. Elisha followed closely in the footsteps of Elijah, observing all that he did, so he would know how to do the things that Elijah did when he was no longer with him; and the 12 disciples followed Jesus everywhere He went, learning to do the things he did, and walk in his ways, so they could teach and do the things of Christ when He was no longer with them.

This is what it means to be a Christian; it comes from two Greek words:

  1. Christ- meaning “anointed one”
  2. -ianos- a suffix meaning “little”

The first disciples were called “Christians” by the Greeks because they looked like, acted like, and did the things that Christ did after He left. They were being called, “Little Anointed Ones” because people saw no difference in what they were doing, and how they lived, than the things Christ did and how He lived. Not only were they healing the sick, raising the dead, casting out demons, and preaching the gospel, but they were as loving and compassionate as Christ was as well, and they taught their disciples to do the same.

In church people are not really doing discipleship. They are evangelized and converted, then sit in a pew, listening to the pastor preach once a week. Most Christians do not read the Bible, or pray, or have any real connection to Jesus if they are not in a church. They recite a sinner’s prayer, and are assured of their salvation, knowing nothing about the gospel, other than what they may occasionally hear preached on Sunday, and that is not discipleship.

We are supposed to walk in the ways of Jesus doing what He did, and teach others to do the same. We are supposed to teach other people to obey everything He commanded us, but we do not. To be a disciple means to be in relationship. Moses and Joshua spent time together, Elijah and Elisha spent time together, and almost everywhere Jesus went, He took Peter, James, and John with Him. He was close to all His disciples, and spent time with them individually or in small groups, teaching them; so we should know that this is our pattern for how to make disciples as Jesus instructed.

Even the commission of the 72 disciples shows us that one-on-one discipleship/evangelism is preferred. Jesus sent two disciples to each house to preach the gospel to whoever would accept them, and He told them to stay the night at the house they went to rather than going from house-to-house:

“And remain in the same house, eating and drinking what they provide, for the laborer deserves his wages. Do not go from house to house.“(Luke 10:7)​

So this is my proposal to the Body of Christ, that we not only evangelize, but make disciples, and discipleship continues long after someone has accepted Christ. It is about teaching people to obey the commandments of Christ(not just the commandments to love God and our neighbor, even though that is the meaning of the Law), and that means that we need to learn the commandments and do them ourselves:

Here is a list of the New Testament Commandments

What are your thoughts and suggestions? How can we go about making disciples, rather than just adding numbers to the church?


I personally think we should be in fellowship. That every member of the church should be in groups of 3, holding accountable the people who are in their group. Not only that, but making sure they are talking and spending time together outside of church, getting to know each other, and making sure that they are all edifying the body with their gifts. I would also think it’s a good idea to do placement tests(Myers Briggs personality test, 5 love languages test, and spiritual gifts test) to see where everyone should end up. I also think that church should be more communal, and an everyday thing, rather than just Sunday (and maybe Wednesday). Preaching can still be on Sunday, and Bible Study/Prayer Meeting on Wednesday, but the rest of the week should be focused on community, discipleship, and outreach(witnessing, feeding the poor, healing the sick, casting out demons, etc.).

Daniel 6 is another Allusion to Christ

I asked God what He had in mind for me today for Bible study, and I opened right to Daniel chapter 6:  the plot against Daniel.

King Darius came to love Daniel because an excellent spirit was in him, because he was faithful, and no error or fault could be found in him.  King Darius had set 120 satraps over his kingdom, and over these 3 governors, of which Daniel was 1.  The governors, administrators, counselors, advisers, and satraps were jealous of Daniel because the king favored him, so they set out to make statutes and decrees against him, and to see if they could force him to quit worshiping God.

Daniel continued to worship the Lord 3 times per day, morning, noon, and night.  When the king heard about it, he had no choice but to follow the law he had signed and enclose Daniel in the lion’s den overnight.  An angel came and shut the lions’ mouths so that they would not hurt Daniel because he was found innocent before God.  King Darius then went on to make a new decree that men must tremble and fear before the God of Daniel.

Seems to me like the 120 satraps represent the 12 tribes of Israel.  And the 3 governors represent the trinity.  And King Darius represent God Almighty.  The 12 tribes of Israel made law to condemn Daniel, but Daniel knew he needed to worship God daily and he pleased the king (God), by continuing to serve Him.  The counselors, satraps, and advisers represent the Sanhedrin.  They cast Daniel into the lion’s den and a stone was rolled over the mouth of the cave, as it was when Jesus was laid to rest after being crucified, and the king sealed it with his own ring, and with the signets of his lords (holy spirit, other heavenly host?).  In the early morning, Daniel was brought up out of the den with no injury on him because he believed in his God.  This represents Jesus’ resurrection.

The main points being that Daniel was special because of his excellent spirit, his faithfulness, and his faultlessness, as Christ.  Finally he was delivered from certain doom because he simply believed in God.

Daniel's Answer to the King

Seeking the One~

Take heed that you do not despise one of these little ones, for I say to you that in heaven their angels always see the face of My father who is in heaven.  For the Son of Man has come to save that which was lost.

What do you think? If a man has a hundred sheep, and one of them goes astray, does he not leave the ninety-nine and go to the mountains to seek the one that is straying?

And if he should find it, assuredly, I say to you, he rejoices more over that sheep than over the ninety-nine that did not go astray.

Even so it is not the will of your Father who is in heaven that one of these little ones should perish.

Bless the LORD, you His angels, who excel in strength, who do His word, heeding the voice of His word.

Bless the LORD, all you His hosts, you servants of His, who do His pleasure.

Bless the LORD, all His works, in all places of His dominion.

Bless the LORD, O my soul!